r uminations of r eminiscence

Just had a tiff with my kor...
haiz....
Feeling really sucky now... I snapped at him because I needed to use the computer to do my work... coz my project is due on Monday...
and he snapped back saying that I have a low eq and next time when I'm feeling down, I shouldn come "crawling" to him...

I guess I really have low eq...

I've lost my best friend... I've lost contact with a community of friends that had supported me and stood behind me for so long...
What else must I pay for trying to reach my goal?...
How much more sacrifices must I make?...

I'm going insane...

This week can be said to be one of the most terrible week of my entire life... I've never cried so much...

I was reading a defination of success by Dr Wayne Richards -

Success is balance at is optimum.
Striking a balance between both what factors your success and what causes your success.
Striking a balance between that which is visible and that which lies within.
The perfect balance of the body, mind soul and spirit.

Therefore, success is balance...

I have failed miserably in one side, and gained considerably little on the other.....

I guess I shouldnt have snapped at my brother...
After all.. he is the one that listens to my crap all days while buying back food for dinner when I'm too lazy too cook...
sigh...

But my projects... arrgh.. its killing me..

I've redid my entire layout of the website....
Though I hardly did alot of physical activity yesterday, when I touched the bed, I went into R.E.M sleep level 3 instantly...
My mind was just so tired from the barrage of thoughts...

I wish I had the power to turn back time now....
I used to wish I had the power to teleport.. but now, I think turning back time would be better....

I would rather erase all my mistakes that I have done to hurt people then have people look upon me with snub amazement...

Having friends itself is a miracle...
Friends are the miracle...

I love my friends..